THROWRAG and their tour on the brain all day at work.

I kept thinking about leaving. about how simple it would be. if throwrag let me be their roadie i would be in heaven. i would have been at some warped tour date today shitting in biffys instead of making them. i would have been having fun in the sun instead of sitting in some dank ass wharehouse bagging stupid parts for a stupid kit. i hope they know i was seriouse when i asked them if i could be their roadie. i need to get out of here. it's killing me. i just wanted to leave work all day. i have no problem working, but i'm not happy doing what i am doing. i'm not happy being stuck in one place. i'm not happy sitting around waiting for something interesting to happen. maybe it's a stupid dream to be a roadie for one of my favorite bands but i could do it. if they let me. i could do it tomorrow. i could just leave and not feel bad. well maybe two weeks cause my mom got me the job and i don't want to make her look bad but still. yeah i'd miss everyone but i would also be meeting so many new people and hanging out with some of my favorites. i'd give anything to leave. to go on tour with the guys. i'd be with people i trust and i'd be traveling and discovering all sorts of great music new and old. i think it would be the experience of a lifetime. and everyone tells me i would get bored or sick of never staying in one place. let me put it to you this way. barely sleeping or eating, partying it up and working hard, hanging out and singing my guts out, traveling to places i've never been and meeting people i've never or never would have met. nothing has ever sounded more sweet. i would be experiencing life instead of living it. i don't know if the boys would want some 20 yr old girl hanging around but i can stay out of the way. i can be quiet as a mouse. just thinking about it and i'm ready to jump out of my skin i want it so bad. i'd give my left hand, or my right ear. i'd easily give up my job and i'd write my friends at least once a month (what else would i do on long car rides?) i'd have so many pictures. i don't think there is anything in the whole world that could make me happier.